Friday again! And, of course, confessional time.
I confess...I've been up since 7am in severe back pain. Same thing I had at the beginning of last week, and I don't know why. But I refuse to take pain meds, because that feels like giving up.
Does that make me stupid, or just stubborn?
I confess...In order to get a handle on the bazillion things I feel I must do each day and week, I have made myself a schedule. Day by day. Hour by hour. Each hour is filled with a task (like workout, chores, violin, sew, etc).
I'm pretty sure this makes me insane.
I'm unemployed, but scheduling every hour of every weekday between 8am and 7pm.
That's insane, right?
I confess...I had seconds on dinner last night.
Not because I was hungry.
Because I was in pain, and eating was a distraction.
I confess...The IRS made me cry yesterday.
Because they are a heartless organization that is determined to nickel-and-dime me to death, even though I am at poverty level right now, and am spending every spare cent I have paying them what I owe from 2009.
I confess...I watched "No Reservations" yesterday, an episode that featured County Cork, and now I am 90% serious about going to Ireland with Angie.
Before, it was a nice pipe dream.
Now, I feel called to it.
I confess...I have no idea where I will get the money for a trip to Ireland, but being free of work makes me feel like anything is possible.
Except buying expensive things.
I confess...I really, really, really want this job as an MMS Assistant 1 with SAIC in Silverdale. I applied 3 weeks ago, and they don't allow you to check in regarding your application, so I probably have been passed over.
That thought alone makes me teary, because it might literally be my dream job (assuming the pay doesn't suck).
But I am willing to do anything to get that job.
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