Wednesday, August 31, 2011

How Big is Your RAK?

Book Soulmates

It's the end of the month, so it's time to take stock of the August RAK!

Since it's my birth month this time around, I was especially touched to receive a book. It's been a good month!

What I sent:

What I received:

From the amazing Joli of Actin' Up with Books

I can't wait for September's RAK!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

There's No Place Like Home

And now I have one!

I got that apartment that I fell in love with, so it truly was meant to be. Yaysauce!

Now, of course, I am hying myself to Home Depot to pick out paint. My desire is to paint the apartment in shades of green, and put up some wall decals to give it a forest/garden feel. You should see my Pinterest...oy, so many choices!

But I need your help! There are 47,210 results on Etsy for wall decals, and from many, many shops. Do you have experience using a particular Etsy (or otherwise) store for wall decals? A place you recommend, or warn against? Any tips for selecting or putting up wall decals? I have never used them, so I can use all the help I can get.....


(Don't worry, pics will follow once I get going, and get my camera to communicate with my laptop again).

Teaser Tuesday

I'm slowly getting back into the swing of things here at Living a Goddess Life. More "happy list" things keep jumping into my life, for which I am profoundly grateful.

Also, I'm grateful for good books. Speaking of which...

"But being a creep wasn't an arrestable offense. 
On the bright side, it was a life sentence."

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:
  • Grab your current read
  • Open to a random page
  • Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
  • Be careful not to include spoilers! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
  • Share the title and author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Musical Monday: Halfway Down the Stairs

My boss bought this last Thursday, and let all of us take a listen. I LOVE the Muppets Green Album that just came out. And for some reason, this song really jumped out at me. I think it's lovely, and wish I could have played it on Love Hangovers, because I think it's a great metaphor for a lot of a lyrical version of Robert Frost's "Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening".

Halfway Down the Stairs, by Amy Lee
Halfway down the stairs is a stair where I sit.
There isn't any other stair quite like it.
I'm not at the bottom, I'm not at the top.
So this is the stair where I always stop.

Halfway up the stairs isn't up and isn't down.
It isn't in the nursery, it isn't in the town.
And all sorts of funny thoughts run round my head.
It isn't really anywhere, it's somewhere else instead.

Halfway down the stairs is a stair where I sit.
There isn't any other stair quite like it.
I'm not at the bottom, I'm not at the top.
So this is the stair where I always stop.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

My Happy List


Well, well, so much to be happy about this week!

I'm happy...
That I'm 30, and it's actually no big deal.

I'm happy...
That I can overindulge in food and booze for one day, and not feel guilty about it, or fat, or ugly, or anything less than satiated. That must be a 'turning 30' thing.

I'm happy...
That I am thisclose from getting a great apartment. I looked intensively, for two weeks, and finally found one that charmed me so much, it felt like home the moment I stepped through the doorway.

I'm happy...
That I don't have to worry about a hurricane affecting me this weekend. I'm a bit worried about my East Coast friends, and also about the fact that the Pacific Northwest is the only region in the continental US that hasn't been hit with a natural disaster in the past 12-18 months. Hrmmm....

I'm happy...
Just because!

Friday, August 26, 2011

Swappy Time!


Ok, I'm in the midst of a move, and starting a new job, but how can I NOT participate in a Mamarazzi swap?! Plus, I have so much happy to share, the idea of random giving is perfect.

So here's the deal: head over to Our Dandelion Wishes, and read the rules of the swap. Then sign up and wait for Mamarazzi's confirmation email. Then make a linked post about it. You'll get your partner, then BAM! Shopping time!

I can tell you that whoever gets me as a partner is going to get some handmade stuff. Muahahaha!

Friday Confessional


I confess...
The past two weeks have been one giant Happy List. I'm so happy with my new job, my new office, my new coworkers, my new boss(es), my new work town (which will hopefully be the town I am living in, too)....part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop, and part of me is cackling in glee. Constantly.

I confess...
I consumed approximately 8 bazillion calories yesterday. TWO huge donuts from Top Pot, Jimmy John's for lunch, The Rock pizza for dinner, and oh yeah, celebratory booze, in a bucket. I'll take any excuse to eat yumminess, even when I can feel my waistband expanding.

So...once again, no Fat Ass Friday post from me.

I confess...
I gave myself chemical burns on my hands, de-seeding and slicing jalapenos Wednesday night. I was baking jalapeno cheddar biscuits, and didn't have any gloves. It's never been a problem before, but for some reason, this time my hands were ablaze. ALL. NIGHT. LONG.

My Eagle Scout of a brother had me go through a regimen of a half dozen washes with soap and water, a paste of baking soda and water, a scrub with orange gojo (ya know, the stuff mechanics use to scrape the grease off), and alcohol-based hand sanitizer. Still, my hands were ablaze, keeping me from sleep.

Until I got up and hosed them down with solarcaine. Today, they're still warm and toasty, but not nearly as painful as they were. Lesson learned!

I confess...
I'm at a point in my life where I see three dozen faces, and that's it. Very rarely do I see a face that does not remind me of someone else's face that I have seen before.

This is a little awkward in the case of two of my male coworkers looking remarkably like two of my ex boyfriends.

However, it's fun when I'm stuck in rush hour traffic and play the game of "you look like that guy!"

I confess...
I am loving this song. It's just so fun and silly and sweet.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The Big Three Oh

Or, as I like to call it:
The Big Three.....oh.

I've got mixed feelings about turning 30 today. Post high school, I haven't made much of a fuss over my birthdays. I don't always go out to celebrate them, or buy myself a gift, or tell people that I have a birthday (unless, of course, I'm at a restaurant and it gets me free cake).

My birthday is in the summer, that time of year when I (and my nearest and dearest) are already busy enough as it is. One more party, during which I awkwardly play hostess and diva at the same time, is something nobody needs.

This year, since it lands on a Thursday, I'm planning on watching "13 Going on 30" and sipping a glass of red wine. Hurrah, me.

And, to be honest, even if my birthday didn't fall on a Thursday this year, I don't think I'd make a big celebration out of it.
In part because I am ashamed.
Not ashamed to be getting older (that's a wonderful part of the human experience).

I'm ashamed, just a little bit, of all the stuff I haven't done, the milestones I haven't hit yet.
Now, I know all the platitudes involved in this- these milestones are about MY growth and development and readiness, not a timeline.

But I'm 30.
I've never had a romantic relationship last longer than 18 months.
I don't have a career path.
I've never submitted my novels for publication.
I don't have a house.
My college degree has gotten me nowhere, professionally.
I have the same body I had in high school, which is not a good thing. Even my wardrobe is not the mature-yet-sexy wardrobe a thirty year old's should be.

In short, the clock is ticking on a few things that I've thought would happen (by now, no less), since I was a wee lass of five. And now, I'm painfully aware of it.

Have I made a mistake, my entire life, hoping and working toward these things that seemed expected? Have I missed opportunities to be even happier because of this strict life-path?

And more importantly, how do I embrace the idea that I might NEVER find a man I love well enough to marry, might NEVER have any children, might NEVER have a house to call my own, might NEVER have career stability or safety? 
How do I accept these things without seeing them as a product of my being somehow damaged or incomplete, instead of non-causal?

And that's where the wine comes in.
Am I happy with my life right now?
Do I feel damned healthy, grateful, and able?
Can I actually control all the threads in the skein of my life?
No. So I need to stop worrying over any of them.

So here's to 30, the old middle age. Three hundred years ago, I'd be dead by now. In this life, the prime is just beginning.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

What We're Reading

Aaaaand I'm tardy! I'm also less likely to read as much now that I have this new job. But I'm enjoying my books, regardless!

What We're Reading

Welcome to another installment of "Beth uses reading as an excuse to avoid other work"! Or, as it's more commonly known, the What We're Reading linky party, hosted by the lovely Ricki and Bonnie.

Since the 20th of last month, I have read:

Books I plan to read in the next month:

Thanks as always to 
For inspiring me to increase my reading list every month!

Teaser Tuesday

"It's interesting to note here that the deity that corresponds with the raven in Plains Indian folklore is the coyote, which is a dog. So it seem to me we are all smashed together at the top of the spiritual food chain." 

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:
  • Grab your current read
  • Open to a random page
  • Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
  • Be careful not to include spoilers! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
  • Share the title and author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

My Happy List


Well hello there, blog-verse! I had fully intended to compose my usual Fat Ass Friday and Friday Confessional posts, and obviously I dropped the ball on that. I also (accidentally) dropped the ball on the August Vlog. Time is warping with this whole new job, apartment hunting, exhausted 24/7 thing. Seriously, I have a hard time figuring out what day it is.

That's not a happy list item, by the way.
But this is!

I'm happy...
That I won an award. Yay! Even though I am suffering from blog-neglect guilt, the lovely Jill from Jill's World awarded me the Versatile Blogger Award. Thanks, pretty lady!
Of course, every award comes with a task, and here it is:
1. Thank the person who gave the award and link back to them in your post. 
2. Share 7 things about yourself.

  • I hate eating things that squeak against my teeth (like green beans). 
  • I'm allergic to soy (but not to dairy, I have recently discovered...though too much dairy makes me stinky).
  • My favorite color, since pre-puberty, is any combo of green and blue. 
  • I hate diamonds. I know they're traditional for engagement rings, but I refuse to wear them, buy them, or support them. To me, they are boring, colorless lumps that are artificially priced and represent the worst of big business (want to learn more? Read up on the Boer families in Africa who raped, pillaged, and manipulated the market to make a buck).
  • I have an addiction to buy used books, hoarding them, and then taking years to read them. I do eventually give them away, but I buy FAR more than I can read in a year.
  • I turn 30 on Thursday. I am so much happier about this now that I'm employed, but I still suffer from huge swings of guilt that I am nowhere near the benchmark of life on this. I am sure I'll be posting more about this in a few days. After I watch "13 Going on 30" and wonder where my Mark Ruffalo is.
  • When I was a kid, I hated having to leave the action of whatever was going on, for anything. Even to pee. So I'd hold it until I made myself physically ill and in massive pain. Sometimes, unable to walk to the restroom afterward. I am amazed I didn't kill my bladder over the 8 years or so that I did this. I was a freshman in high school when I finally stopped that nonsense. 

3. Pass this award along to 15 recently discovered blogs.

So congrats (and thanks) to you fabulous bloggers who deserve this award. Wahoo!

And I promise to get enough time to read and comment on your week...Wednesday, maybe? Sometime. I promise!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

100 Follower Giveaway WINNER!

Thanks to all you fabulous rock stars who entered my 100 Follower Giveaway!

I'm sorry to have fallen a day behind on the announcement, but here it is...the winner of my humongousnoid giveaway....out of 27 entries...

True Random Number Generator  
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Lucky #16, Jessica!

09248720459187736707.jpg Jessica said...

I'm following your facebook.

Congrats, Jessica! An email has been sent to you regarding this win.
Though, in truth, I'M the winner, with so many amazing bloggers regularly stopping in here, and encouraging me. Also, giving me an excuse to make more pirate fascinators. Yay!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

We Want to Know Wednesday


This week has flown by so quickly! I'm swamped right now- work, finding a place to live, dealing with the fact that the only two pairs of shoes I have are flip flops and sexy death sandal heels that have given me half a dozen blisters in two days, needing to get a work wardrobe within the next 4 days mainly in the form of a few good interchangeable tops and a cardigan or know, the usual.

But here's me, doing ONE meme this week. That's productivity!

Thanks to our We Want to Know Wednesday hosts, Mamarazzi and Alicia aka Queso!

{1} Did you live in the same town or move around a lot as a child?

I lived in the same town from age 8 months to age 18 years (and then for a few years here and there in my twenties). I was in the same house until I was 16, which is as rooted as you can be as a kid.

{2} What were your parents like?

My parents were, and are, amazingly supportive. They're also much like me, which made me frustrated when I was too young to accurately express myself and was unable to understand why I was continually frustrated. They were strict, and traditional, but I think my childhood was an unusually fantastic one.

{3} Do you have any siblings? What were they like growing up?

Yep, I have two older brothers. There was a phase where they were decorating boxes to look like Disneyland rides and pulling me around the house in them. There was a phase where one of them was getting into physical conflict with me on a daily basis, and the other was switching sides, and I still bear the scars from that phase. Now there's this cool adult phase thing where we can hang out as contemporaries and talk about anything, and when we occasionally piss each other off we just take a break instead of punching each other.

{4} Share a short story from your childhood.

See above.

{5} What did you look like? (share a childhood pic for a chance to win a prize)

Exactly like I do now.
No, seriously, my KINDERGARTEN teacher recognized me, after over a decade, in my senior year. I am amazing the same as I was. Need proof?

(My five year old fashionista self)

Saturday, August 13, 2011

My Happy List


It's getting difficult to keep track of the days, what with everything moving at the speed of light right now. So please forgive me for constantly being late!

I am happy...
That I now have a job. And not just a job, but a job in my field, desired salary range, and desired location. That rocks.

Do I need more things to add to my happy list? I don't think so.

But I will say that, in addition to being happy, I am very grateful for the support and love and time of all my friends, including you wonderful bloggy folks!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Friday Confessional


I confess...
I am a teensy bit overwhelmed right now. Not in the "OMG cannot process life!" sort of way, but in the "Virgo has gone into hyperdrive" kind of way. So basically, I'm juggling 15 balls at once, and I'm okay with that, but it means some things must temporarily fall by the wayside.

You see where I'm going with this, don't you?

I promise, I will still be blogging.
Just not AS MUCH as before.
I still love you. I'm still interested in your life. I still read your posts and giggle, aha, sympathize, envy, and support you. I just may be less vocal about it.

I confess...
This is because I am now gainfully employed.

I confess...
I skipped FAF today, because all this excitement and nervousness has meant really wonky eating and exercise habits for me this week. And I have a date tonight, so I don't want to be focused on how much I weigh right before that.

I confess...
Trying to figure out what area of town I want (and can afford) to live in now that I have a job is tough. Living in the same 'burb as my employer may be out of my price range. However, the cheap stuff means an hour or two commute on the bus everyday, plus potentially being out of the way of all my friends. I really have no clue how I'm going to narrow down my options.

I confess...
I considered flaking on the date tonight, because I'm exhausted. But then I thought, it's a brewery tour. Beer cures exhaustion, right?

I confess...
Secretly, I'm excited. Not just for having a paycheck and benefits, but to feel like I'm using my brain again, making social connections, helping the world a little....that seems right, and good.

Remind me of this when my alarm clock goes off at 6am.